my school life(part 1)
a Green Bug in my lunch box!oh my god, a “cute” bug was in my lunch box! what shall i say? school lunch sucks!
Although the bug-mixed lunch didn’t make me feel very ill,cause i call myself buggie,but it made Lichee sick,very sick. The bug has long green body with little fur. Oh, i dont wanna describe it, sick!
But that day, hearing this reason from my classmate’s mouth, i suddenly felt the reason is just too stupid! how could a life be boring? how could a life be meaningless? well, i used to pained myself, but i won’t do it any more. cuz i know when i do this, andy feels pain too. i dont wanna make him feel pain because of me! honey~miss u…
Our Chinese teacher cried in the class.She hurted herself with knife!She’s a girl in my class. i saw her scars on her arm. many scars… they really scared me! i asked her why she did so. She told me because her life’s empty, meaningless! … i remember when i pained myself, i was thinking the same.
ah~it’s not easy to be a teacher, a good teacher…i’ve never seen a teacher cried in front of students. im moved. why she cried? just because we dont get the good marks. and to my surprise, she even bowed to the student who got the highest score. she said that there was no bad students,but bad teachers. she blamed herself.
For saking good lifes, I want to learn useful thing by myself. The biggest problems is by myself I felt hard to complete a task. A lot of thing just can learn by your own. I can felt is quite sure when I learn B by myself. Also, giving up the subject I have learned now is also a terrible idea, what if the subject I learned shall develop a good future, though it is impossible. I guess what I can do now is droping all thing in my mind, if I don’t have a choice, I may learn what I should learn better, not to regeret the valuable university life.It has been a long time since I wrote blog. It is pretty strange that I felt I am kind of busy doing a lot of stuffs, but when I stop to think about what had I done, I could find I even didn’t doing anything. Time is walking so fast that I can’t control it. I have to do a lot of stuffs, even if I didn’t know what should I do. Life is quite annoyed without an aim. But what aim I get? That’s a big problem. On one hand, I am studying without a good promising of good life, on the other hand, I alway can’t agree the idea of what subject I am learning, news from everywhere told me that I can’t even find a job to do.